This Dance

Our souls intertwined.

Flesh on flesh;

Eating at my mouth,

like you cannot get enough;

You cannot taste enough;

You cannot get close enough.

The pulse of our skin,

in time,

with the pulse of our hearts,

in time,

with the pulse of our bodies.

An aching for more.

A need to be one,

in this dance our souls embrace.

Today by Trublu

See What We'll Find

The rain clouds my judgment,
as it falls inside my head.
My heart screams to be heard,
that I am worth what’s unsaid.

I do not know how this will go,
I do not know from day to day;
But I do know there is a reason,
and a longing to feel this way.

I fear the unknown,
the pain it could cause.
I seem unable to stop,
but for a short pause.

A pause, as I gaze on….
Into your eyes, gazing on….
Into mine.
Pondering this life;
New and what’s gone.

I get lost easily
when I listen to you speak.
The moment you touch me,
my sea of reality is weak.

Out of my head,
and out of my mind,
I believe we will do this,
to see what we’ll find.

Take Care

Be careful with your heart,
as it’s been sleeping a long while.
It is I who has awakened it,
sent you spinning; with a smile.

I cannot promise a reason;
I cannot promise a season;
I cannot promise a lifetime;
But I can promise love.

Remember to keep your head up,
for you may drown in me.
Please keep your eyes open,
for beyond my horizon love may be

You deserve a love,
that maybe I cannot give.
As I deserve a life,
and a new chance to live.

No matter how the future sees,
No matter how we find our feet.
We will know in our hearts,
that this walk meant us to meet.

Who the hell wrote this? hee hee

I imagine her soft lips pressed gently against mine,
a lock of my hair twirled around her fingers.
The gentle pressure of her hand on the small of my back,
pressing our bodies together in a passionate embrace.

now just a memory

I can think of nothing to descride what an amazing day I had today. I only wish it could have lasted forever because now that it's over it will never come again. I find, aside from my fabulous delrium, I am very worried for another that a care deeply for. I pray he is alright... Good night my new found friends. A deep caring flourishes within me for you with every passing day. Thank you.

No More

What is happening?
What is this fear?
I feel like I am sinking,
Being swallowed by the cold;
Being beaten by the dark.
How will I be seen?
How will I be heard?
Will my screams come in waves of silence?
Will my tears drown in rivers of sand?
I feel a slipping, heavy hole.
I feel the fear moving through me,
Like a parasite in my veins.
I feel the pain like mud,
A quicksand to my soul.
Not knowing my limits,
Not owning my essence to live.
The sweet beads of regret,
Break the skin so clean.
As my blood empties from my heart,
I am finally rid of my soul.
I will feel no more.
I will cry no more.
I will need no more.
I will be no more.

Susan Seddon Boulet Shaman Spider Woman

You can't live here...

Tongue Tied

Decay by Saarl

YOU SUCK!

You build me to tear me down.
You tell me how I don’t care.
You accuse me of trivial things,
And maim the truths I share.

You believe only what you choose.
You stare me down until I fall,
But you cannot create more anger,
For in my heart I hold it all.

You no longer have the power,
To demand an explanation.
You no longer have the right,
To expect loves reservation.

I am done listening to the accusations.
I am done being the blame.
I am done having to always worry.
I am done feeding your flame.

I am now demanding my freedom,
For you've sucked the life from me.
I long ago shrouded my soul,
To protect its immortality.

"... I, myself, am strange and unusual."

What Now?

A process of elimination,
A predictable outcome.
I saw her in the crowd;
My head spinning, numb.

In a sea of straight people,
She feels like a shiny new toy.
The lesbian in my iris,
I play with dutifully, and coy.

A wound reopened tonight;
One I’ve been willing to heal
One I knew was deep and brutal,
One I never wanted to feel.

He blew my ideals aside,
Small talk suddenly and sly.
What does he mean by this,
How shall I begin to try?

It’s not about a companion;
It’s not about love or sex;
It’s about closeness and protection,
Of something less complex.

I am trapped in a new freedom.
Free to feel, free to do, free to…
I am alive and ready for this,
I am scared and aching to see you.

Sleep comes swift when it’s easy,
But days creep on without remorse.
I have been feeling unwound,
and fearfully off course.

Suppose I close my eyes now,
Suppose I cry myself to sleep.
Will the pain be gone when I wake?
Or will you take my soul to keep?

My Heart

I’ve been waiting

My heart pounding
Hands shaking
Tears welling
Fear waking

It broke my heart the first time
I fear of the second
How many time will I ask
Before I am reckoned

The new Google??